I had a crap night sleep last night. I decided not to take a sleeping pill as I am not working today and I don’t have the car as Gordon’s is in the “shop”. I knew it was going to be bad but not as hellish as it actually was. the only bed I didn’t try out, was Alan’s. Eventually I ended up on the sofa as Gordon’s snoring was driving me nuts!!! I must have drifted off to sleep when I was woken up abruptly by loud thumping on the door. At least I thought it was our door but it was actually a neighbour’s door. I was completely disorientated and my brain buzzed so badly that my ears started to throb . It scare the living daylights out of me and after that I drifted from one bad dream to another, in all of them I was scared and hyperventilating. My head was sparking like mad and on some occasions I couldn’t tell whether I was dreaming or actually doing what I was feeling. It was scary and not something I want to repeat tonight.
I think the cause of the nightmares and hyperventilating (that was real) is that I have stopped taking the anti depressants I was on, as I figured I don’t seem depressed any more, far from it. Must admit, the reason I had delayed doing it was because I had heard that coming off Cymbalta can be difficult precisely for these reasons. I would like to get off the sleeping pills as well but I think I will tackle the cymbalta first and then the ambien. I have come to except the fact I am not a sleeper but facing Gordon’s worsening snoring (plus not breathing, that frightens me but he is ignoring me on that subject) and nightmares, is just too much at the moment. Hopefully working will take my mind off the brain buzz and by next week I will have gotten through the worse of it.
Postscript to previous post: Someone in Chicago likes to frame their pictures. Apparently the Joann store in the Riverfront Plaza in Chicago IL had on average 62 custom frame orders per week in this past year. That is 8 frames a day! Not sure how our store compares but its way lower than that. That may not seem like much but yesterday I doubt if we completed more than 3 and that seems like a good day. Obviously we need to aim higher!
Sorry to read about your sleeplessness. It’s horrible when that happens. Anyway I’m posting this comment just to say how much I like the photograph at the top of the blog.
I assume you took it so where was it taken?
Hope you sleep better tonight.
By: Heather on April 25, 2008
at 7:27 pm
There is a book bt Dr Peter Breggin called “Toxic Psychiatry” which is an excellent resource…if coming of anti depressants he reccommends coming off in small increments like a quarter tab for a few weeks and then another quarter etc… otherwise we have all the symptoms which had us taking them in the first place, but what is really going on is we are havinf physical and psychological withdrawals…and in some cases people go back on because they think they need them becauase they don’t recognise the withdrawals as what they are…
When I first hit menopause some years back I wouls get the night terrors/horrors/ think I was dying etc…I found sleeping almosy sitting up helped a bit…with pillow support, or getting up and writing or something for an hour or two…
I have awful anxieties these days…mainly like post traumatic stress stuff as like my daughters we are all having horrific flashbacks into Don’s abuse and torture..which is what happened…I went to the health food store and got a natural calimtive which I can take again at 2am if I can’t sleep again. Some nights I do but most nights are about 3 4 hours…I seem to cope on this but feel wired and tired at the same time…as do my girls. Then I will sleep through…
the natural stuff is not assured to work and is expensive… unsure of the position in the US
take care Jacqui…
By: Middle Child on April 26, 2008
at 5:13 am