A snippet I remember from a dream last night

 

We have moved into this smart new house, one we have coveted for a while.  We are in the kitchen and I notice some light shining through  the wall.  I go over to inspect it and realise, not only is it a hole but the whole wall is collapsing.  I realise that the room we are in use to be another room and that is why the wall is not solid.  However, neither of us (Gordon is with me)  is particularly concerned, we can convert it back to the original design, nothing is lost as we still have the house.

That was a confirmation that what I was thinking about  was the right thing to do.

So this morning I told Gordon I was giving my 2 weeks notice and quitting Joann’s.   As I suspected, he was fully supportive of my decision. I feel bad, a runaway but it had to be done.

I have been thinking about it for a while and to be honest, it was hard as I loved working with all the people in Joann’s but my hands have become increasingly stiff from all the cutting, especially my thumbs.  However, it was actually the lack of work in framing that spurred my decision as I reasoned that was why I joined Joann’s  in the first place and Nev has increasingly decided not use me in Framing. 

I realise I wasn’t terribly good at it but really I never had the chance to be good.  In the 9 months I have been there, I have barely been in framing so never actually got to know all the nooks and crannies of framing.   In 9 months, I have never sewn down an embroidery, I have never done a dry mount, I have done a handful of fillets and only 2 shadow boxes (they were my own frames!)     Not because I didn’t want to  but because Nev trusted me to do anything .  I have asked countless times to be shown how to use the mat board cutter but as Nev doesn’t like to cut mats, she refuses to show us (Georgia. the other spare body for the framing dept). Oh, don’t worry about that, Kristen will do that.  Trouble is Kristen is planning to leave at the end of December, so who will do all the framing tasks she hates to do, once Kristen has gone.    Actually I know, Georgia and actually she is really good, as she did framing at Micheal’s years ago.  So really, Nev doesn’t need me unless its for unpacking freight or doing the filing, both of which I do really well.:)

Even today, I was so nervous of designing a frame as Nev scares me so much I had to get her to check it out before I committed it to the ordering process.  I was increasingly becoming wary of going into framing, as I would make mistakes mainly because I hadn’t been in there for a few weeks, so had forgotten was the procedure was.  I noticed if I was there for  a couple of times a week,  my mistakes were less but conversely the less I was in there, the more mistakes I made, making me feel like an abject failure.  It really wasn’t doing my self esteem any good at all. 

So anyway the Deed is done, so what next?  Well, all the ongoing projects for a start which is where I am off to now!