Did I say last time, that this is it, definitely, hysterectomy for me? Yes, of course, I did! Well, it seems that the root of my problems over the last few years has not been adenoymosis, fibroid or anything like that, but simply an chronic infection of my uterus (endometritis) ! So I am now on antibiotics for the next couple of weeks, no hysterectomy and ,assuming I don’t have any further problems, on to the menopause. God, I hope it is that simple! Given that I have been told so many things in the last 5 yrs, it hard to believe it could be cured by simple dose of penicillin. To be honest, I am really tired of this saga, 10 fecking years I have been have hot flushes and night sweats, why was nature so cruel to us?
The other saga in my life is my constant battle with weight and with the clearing of a lot of our stuff into storage for what seems forever (will anyone even look – only one person so far in 8 wks!) and look what I found from my college days.
Yes, even in at college I was obsessing with my weight and exercise, not that it has helped one little bit. 
On the back of it in 1994, I recorded my weight in British stones and lbs. The sad thing is that I have converted into the lbs I now use and realised that there is only few lbs difference for now to then! One day I will get back to the days of glory and weigh the 130lbs I weighed before I had kids. Unfortunately at the time, I was convinced I was huge and had a terrible eating disorder (bulimia) – what a wasted youth I had!
I never had Bulimea but always thought I was on the edge of being fat and obsessed about food. Now i seldom think about it and just eat sensibly. i accept myself as i am fullstop and don helped there ebcause he loved me no matter what. Sad that we need others to help with self esteem.
I see my sister with two little girls and a boy and everyone comments what a good healthy eater the boy is…but the same comments are never made in respect to the girls…and she obsesses about their eating…they are too thin…damage is being done…we shoudl not treat the boys and gorls like this. He is allowed to be a healthy stocky wild little thing who eats with both hands. The girls have always had it impressed upon them how bad butter and fat is…makes me sick to see this but can’t say anything… my sister was a sports teacher as well and should know better.
By: Middle Child on July 15, 2009
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